I'm about 16 months into a stylist position at a privately owned salon.  I'm proud to say that this is one of the best salons in town.  A few months ago I was given a key and the responsibilities of being able to open and close the register.  I'm also a mentor to a hairdresser that has had some difficulties working the register, having professional phone skills, and issues with haircolor.  I come to work 30-60 minutes early and usually stay 30 min - 2 hours after my shift ends.  My dream is to manage my own salon after the business opens location #2.  Recently though, I've been so discouraged through the mentoring process.  I've been told by the owner to work with this other stylist closely on her issues.  I have a very short time to get her up to speed as we are entering the holiday season and I have been told it will be my fault if she doesn't learn everything she needs to know. I should also mention this stylist has a learning disability which makes the process alot slower.  This past week I feel like I took every moment of downtime to work with this stylist.  As a result I got a little behind in some of my own work like practicing on a mannequin head some cuts and styles our senior stylist wanted the staff to work on.  This past Saturday was our morning keyholders' meeting.  Well to make a long story short I got layed into about my mannequin looking like an old lady and how my boss is now afraid to put people in my chair now.  I know I should have asked for help with mentoring this stylist so I could get some time in to work on my own skills.  Don't get me wrong, my boss is tough and highly demanding but also very generous with education.  I was told in this meeting that I guess I felt like I was too good to practice and it was a waste of my time.  That if I really cared about my job I would spend more time out of work doing things to practice.  I now feel  horribly guilty if I don't work on mannequins and watch educational dvds on my days off.  I love learning, but sometimes I do need time away from doing hair.  I was also told specifically if this stylist didn't get training properly it would be my fault if she failed.  In prior weeks if she made a mistake on the register, it was because I wasn't spending enough time with her.  I know the burden of responsibility rests on me, but lately I feel as if I can't please my boss.  Everytime I try to be the hyperorganized and "I got everything under control" business person, I feel like I am failing at every turn.  Maybe I am not management material and I should just be a worker bee.  After that meeting I was just so depressed and cried all day.  My boss is awesome in so many ways, but when she is displeased with me it's a kick in the guts.  I don't know what the secret is.  Whatever I'm doing is obviously not working.  I guess I need to put in more hours.  She and the senior stylist make it look so easy to be perfect.         

Sorry just edited it.  Accidently posted before adding content.